I will

I Will – The Beatles

Who knows how long I’ve loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to – I will.
For if I ever saw you
I didn’t catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same.
Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we’re together
Love you when we’re apart.
And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
You know I will
I will.


Crap! Another phase of me feeling awful. Another day of me feeling blue. I had enough this negative thoughts. But no… please not again. Why this shit could be happen? Is it absolutely a problem with myself? Or is it just another patch of confusion that slowly killing my brain? This is what we call a life, right? Life is a beautiful thing but sometime shit happens, doesn’t matter how optimistic you are. Oh freaking swing mood please don’t disturb my peaceful and happy life. Please just go away and don’t make me drowning in my own world which lead me to the place called hell of mentality. Call me crazy, call me blind. But I will hold on until the time I can’t. Which I know I always can.

Always Right There

Having relationship with the “right and click” one means :

Could we, after read pages by pages our journey of life, grow old together, and finally when we meet again, we only just sit and quite as no more words left to say and no more stories left to share.

Could we, only just holding hands, in silent conversation and pleasant situation.

Nothing can compare, to know that you always be there, for me.

Nothing left to say but I know that you are there.

Island of paradise

Sitting down the old bamboo bench.

Dogs barking from the distance.

Birds singing with melody.

Billowing fragrant of dupa.

Leaves on twigs dancing merrily.

Sweltering afternoon, relaxing, and peacefully beautiful.

Island of paradise.

Island of Gods.

It is just amazing feeling.


Dirty Duck Diner

Dirty Duck Diner aka Bebek Bengil was first opened in 1990, located in Hanoman Street, Padang Tegal, Ubud. Great food, great place, relaxed atmosphere. They offer variety of menu, but The Crispy Duck is their speciality. The duck is so crispy so that you can eat the bones. Half a duck steamed in Indonesian spices and then fried for a crispy finish. You can choose two kinds of side dishes that served with the crispy duck. Your choice of sautéed potatoes and a side salad or steamed rice and Indonesian vegetables. It also served with traditional Bali’s chili sauce called sambal matah, contains delicious red onion pickles added with chili pickles.

Every time I visit Bali, I never miss this restaurant with the same menu :
1. The Crispy Duck served with steamed rice and Indonesian vegetable.
2. Fresh fruit juices or lemon tea.
3. Dessert Black Russian Pie.
4. Sometimes I add more salad or French fries.

It’s all cost only around IDR 150,000/person.

Wondering where they got the name “Dirty Duck Diner” as the name of the restaurant? Sounds nasty as the name of the restaurant but here is the fact that I found in their menu :

“When we were building the restaurant, we thought long and hard about a name. Many good suggestions came from our friends, but none seemed just right. We knew we wanted a Balinese name that translated well into English. However, for a long time the metaphor eluded us. One tropical monsoon morning, when the restaurant was very close to being finished (we had the concrete floor down, and the tables in), a flock of ducks from the rice field across the road (yes, there were rice fields all around us then) ran quacking and squawking into the restaurant and across the floor and tables. They left muddy webbed footprints all over the place. They were our first guests – those dirty ducks!”

A Man’s Dying

The day you left
Real life tasted like a bitter pill
That i have to swallow
Really bites

Why you have gone so far away?
Why your presence still too real?
Why you let me to feel this way?
What about us?

Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways.
(Stephen Vincent Benet)

Petang.. senja membayang..
Gundukan tanah merah itu masih basah..
Semakin basah oleh titik-titik hujan..
Angin.. dingin..
Kubiarkan dirimu pergi bersama tenggelam matahari..
Kurelakan dirimu menyatu denganNya..

A man’s dying is more the survivors’ affair than his own (Thomas Mann)

I love you too much
Too much love is killing me
I’m just a dust without you

Love works in miracles every day: such as weakening the strong, and stretching the weak; making fools of the wise, and wise men of fools; favouring the passions, destroying reason, and in a word, turning everything topsy-turvy. ~ Marguerite De Valois ~

Until I found you (another you)
My life back on track
You bring me to the light
You make me warm
You keep me sane
Loving you is beautiful
Being with you is wonderful
I rather die than watching you fall into pieces
I’m just (another) dust without (another) you

If you have it [Love], you don’t need to have anything else, and if you don’t have it, it doesn’t matter much what else you have. (Sir James M. Barrie)


Dalam terra incognita..

Aku memujamu..

Dengan setengah mati-separuh hidup..

Kita telah lewati paradiso dan inferno bersama-sama..

Di bumi, di mimpi, di manapun..

You were my cure and I was your disease..

I was killing you and you were saving me..

Mungkinkah kita alami, reinkarnasi, dalam keabadian..


Aku tetap memujamu.. for sure..